"不要拿未来的样子看到很完美"

This is definitely the first time of me to title a post in chinese words. Some of you might not understand or i might use the wrong chinese word to phrase it correctly, but it should mean "Don't look into the future to be so perfect". It was something my chinese colleague said to me earlier and she might not know this, but her sentence has a very deep meaning. It hits me right away that yeah she's right and i wonder why i never thought about it? I mean, if i was to ask you how do you see yourself in 10 years time? Most of you or probably all of you would probably answer "Settling down and start a family", "Working is my life", "a billionaire" or even "Forever single. It's awesome". The last one is a sarcasm, but anyway, you get my point. No one would say "I will be unhappy", "I will be really broke" because none of us ever see our future in a hopeless way. It makes me wonder if it's due to the fact that we are all living a life where we believe in happily ever after because ever since we're young we've been watching and reading story books, comic books, cartoon and movies that end happily and they eventually build an illusion in ourselves that everyone deserved and will have a happy ending. But unfortunately, reality doesn't go that way. A guy doesn't just pop out of nowhere and loves you until he dies, success doesn't just come in a snap and it can't even last long if you're not really serious in it. Accidents happen, time changes, people change and in the end we are bound to accept the reality.
Anyway, i'm sorry if this post sounds really discouraging but i'm just stating what i feel is true. I don't want to lie to you and say this "You'll have an awesome future. Rich, big house, handsome husband, cute kids. A happy ending" *puppyface*. I wouldn't throw that crap at anyone because even the richest families have their own problems that we didn't know.
Again, i'm sorry that i sound discouraging. It's just, i've been living a life full of bullshit, problems, disappointments and lies whereas i've been dreaming since i was a kid to be a really happy person, living a peaceful and perfect life but what do i get? So far, peaceful and perfect is hardly seen. I can vividly see tons of problems and disappointments await down the road. 
But um, these are just my opinion. I'm not a believer but if you are, keep believing and don't let reality steals your dream away the way it steals mine.








Neon pink top and checkered shirt from HnM, Highwaisted shorts from Topshop, Boots is brand-less and the guitar is my sister's. 
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